sad and depressed

hey, its been awhile since my last post. it seems that my medications aren't working anymore. im so sad and depressed right now. it all started when i was in tagaytay. the only thing that made me lift up my mood was going home to manila, and the music i was listening to, when i was up there. i actually dont know what to do anymore. i guess i have failed. i did start on the wrong foot.. dainie (a friend) is right. i really did start on the wrong foot. sana naman she can forgive me. i dont want to lose a friend like her, lalo na that i have limited number of friends nalang. you know... having a social life is so hard. i just wish everything will go well. having to go through a lot in my one whole year in Phoenix, i guess its hard for me to find a friend who i can be close to. ampooootah im so fucking depressed and i cant take it anymore... i need to talk to someone like my psychiatrist. fuck this and that! its pissing me off. its not you dainie.. its myself... this doesnt have anything to do with you... i guess there's alot that just came off to my head and mind now... give me ZOLOFT and EPIVAL asap