sad and depressed

hey, its been awhile since my last post. it seems that my medications aren't working anymore. im so sad and depressed right now. it all started when i was in tagaytay. the only thing that made me lift up my mood was going home to manila, and the music i was listening to, when i was up there. i actually dont know what to do anymore. i guess i have failed. i did start on the wrong foot.. dainie (a friend) is right. i really did start on the wrong foot. sana naman she can forgive me. i dont want to lose a friend like her, lalo na that i have limited number of friends nalang. you know... having a social life is so hard. i just wish everything will go well. having to go through a lot in my one whole year in Phoenix, i guess its hard for me to find a friend who i can be close to. ampooootah im so fucking depressed and i cant take it anymore... i need to talk to someone like my psychiatrist. fuck this and that! its pissing me off. its not you dainie.. its myself... this doesnt have anything to do with you... i guess there's alot that just came off to my head and mind now... give me ZOLOFT and EPIVAL asap

its juz a feeling....

hey its been awhile since i did my last posting. i have been very busy lately. being in school for at least twice a week, and trying to catch up on the things i have left behind. i have seen big changes in me, compoared to my life before, i have been so lazy in doing my modules, and now i have realized and so proud of myself that i can do 5 -10 modules in one sitting, when im in school. by the way, during my free time, i have been doing some computer repairs that helps me earn my own money ;p well i have figured out something very nice. you know that microsoft anti piracy campaign has been going around to check out all the things around here in our country for pirated softwares, well i did something nice. i installed two operating systems in a laptop, and it boots up to a linux filesystem always, but there is such an option where-in it does boot up to windows. upon doing that thing, i felt proud again on learning those things. right now, like what i usedas my title, my frist main priority is my studies..........


but in the other hand, since the first day of school, and finally met the girl who i knew since before, a girl who was a big barkada friend to me, who didnt fucked or screwed up my life; not like the other girl who did. LOL! :P

Its been a while!!!

Oh God! Its been a while since my last posting. I have been very busy lately. I have been doing some work for my dad, and taking care of some errands. I have been doing some computer works as well. Almost all the time I'm on the computer. I was able to finish downloading and burning some files from my PC and was able to finish a project called "project numero uno." The project I made was to have my own Linux Operating System without spending a single cent by downloading the Operating System freely and legally from the Linux website. Starting last night, I brought my dad's computer to my room for me to fix, I formatted it and installed a new file of OS, and happily its so fast that its like a new damn computer. Then I had to leave the house and rush to the office, kasi I had to fix a computer pa, so mostly until now, I'm infront of the computer. Yun lang naman.. Mostly, I had fun over the weekend.. and wala naman akong naging problema. :)

AFTERCARE!

This is my Aftercare Support Group, these people here are the people who helped me changed my ways, and old behaviors. From left (me, Richard Gene, Natalie, Peter Philip, John, Rafael Raffy, Rodolfo), these are the people who I thank the most. Sila yung tumulong sa akin when I was down, and they never gave up on me. I was like a roller coaster, and still they were there ready to help me. Well hindi pa ito kumpleto, there are still other members of my aftercare group who is not here in this picture. Most of them is in the facility pa. Well all I can say is thank you very much for your support! Kindly read the following:

1.) RG - thanks bro, almost sabay tayo pumasok and sabay din tayo lumabas, tuloy-tuloy na sana itong recovery natin!
2) Lianne - the hot mama of the group. Stay sober kapatud and papayat ka na :)
3.) Philip - "hey shingle! what are you doing?"
4.) John - salamuch!
5.) Appie - salamat talaga.. Mag Iced Tea ka nalang sa Pier1. :)
6.) Kuya Jack - my counselor! Ikaw parin ang Jack of Makati. Pero sana hindi na yung ugali. :)

Those are my dedications. See you soon mga kapatud ko!!

INTRODUCTION

Hey! Welcome to my site... Its another thing I want to start all over again. I'm being so lonely for these past few days, and I was wondering on how to overcome my boredom. I tried to surf the net, play playstation, sleep and do stupid things and still when I wake up, I feel the boredom.. So today, my dad and I went to inquire for a school he saw from a newspaper ad in todays newspaper, Inquirer. We went to ABS-CBN Distant Learning Center. But unfortunately it was closed not until tomorrow. So I guess I will just return there tomorrow. Also today I went to my old school, Angelicum College, and saw my teachers and moderators. They were shocked upon seeing me and they said that "pumayat daw ako". I requested for my transcripts so I can transfer, but I'm still confused right now on which school I should go to this school year. Upon getting my records, I went to my previous school before Angelicum and got my remaining records from them, and I have to wait till thursday for it, and now I'm thinking of what I will do. See you know how much boredom I have in me right now... Damn, ang hirap kaya. Amputs, I need a break! All I have been doing lately is internet, networking, website building, emailing, and chatting (which is limited :p)... Yun lang naman so far. Thats all for now, I have to go. Susundo pa ako sa kapatud ko!

-peace out!